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| User: | poisontreasure (9130601) The Diary of a Poisoned Treasure
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| Name: | poisontreasure | ||||
| Bio: | Sooooo, A little bit about me. For starters, I was born and raised in New York on Long Island, and moved to TN not even a month after I turned 17. Culture SHOCK!!! And that is to say the least!! I guess at first I didn't like it very much. Much of that due to the fact that I couldn't understand a word anyone twanged out LOL. More or less I laughed if they did, just so it seemed like I understood them ..haha I guess the south grew on me though, as I cant imagine myself living in New York again. Heck, I don't think I could even live in a subdivision. Yes, I'm a New Yorker, but I have lived down south now for going on 15 years, so I have lost most of the accent. There are still certain words though, that everyone always teases me over because those words still hold the accent thickly. (according to them) About the only time the accent seems to come out fully is when I'm mad. Apparently, people say when I get mad, it sounds like I walked right out of Brooklyn. LOL, but I don't hear it, so who knows. Funny thing is, ill be upset, and they laugh...because of the instant transformation on tone, and then i become more flustered..lol I have been married. He lives in North Carolina with his new wife and her three kids. He and I remain friends, and he calls usually once or twice a week to talk to the kids and i, and he sees them once or twice a year. He was a Marine, and we were married 6 years. I dont agree with the idea that ex's cant get along and be friends. My most recent relationship was with a man (Dom) that lasted a little over 4 years, and we split back in January 2005. I have three children. My oldest is a girl. She is almost 14 and in the 8th grade. She is a good kid, (though very annoying at times..i guess it is the age) and only really started making friends this year. Since then she has been doing a lot better. It has been hard for her. She likes scrapbooking and is usually found snapping pictures with her digital camera. My son is 12, in the 6th grade, and involved in just about every sport this small town has to offer, Overloaded with friends, and keeping me on my toes driving him back forth to all his sporting things. He also is a avid fisher and hunter!! He would go on to say that he was a also a chick magnet..(his term not mine) but lets just say the only chicks i foresee in the near futer are the same ones he runs from at the barn as they chase to peck him. My youngest girl is 10, in the 5th grade, Honor roll, involved in everything, and blessed with stunning beauty, Lord only knows where she got it from, she doesn't look like me or her father, but she is a well rounded kid. (and suddenly taking an interest in boys....Heaven help me) I live on a farm in a very small town and have chickens, pigs, goats, ..etc etc. If it weren't for the LOUSY school system, I would completely love it here. (I wont get started on the school, because once I'm on a roll with it, I wont shut up.) I have an incredible view here, it is simply gorgeous!! We have a large creek, and fish all the time. Wildlife covers the woods, and my son can hunt all year round if it were legal. I like to read, take long baths, camp, hike, and LOVE ATVing. Mud slinging on an ATV is such a blast!! No, i dont mind getting dirty at all!! With gas prices the way they have been though I haven't done much of it this summer or fall, keeping the tanks filled with our economy's liquid gold just might break me..lol. I like movies, though I would rather be at home on a comfortable couch with pause and rewind then at the theater, but I do go to the theater from time to time. (we have a drive in here) I love "live" theater though, especially musicals. As a kid, I was in a few off Broadway musicals and loved it. Fiddler On The Roof was one of my favorites. Four star hotels, a formal gown, wine, ribs and lobster are enjoyable from time to time, though given a choice, I would have to pick the secluded mountains, tent, a warm flannel, hot cocoa in a tin cup, and sticky messy smores. LOL I have a good time in both types of surroundings though. I have recently changed jobs (6 months ago). I had been a medical assistant for a family practice clinic for several years, though recently took a position as an office manager for a psych doctor. I miss the clinical aspect of my job, but the doctor I work for now is a great lady. Unfortunatly, i dont like the position as i found i dont do well with crazy people, and am currently looking to find employment in one of the hospitals or at another family practice. I dont mind the mentally retarded people, they are sweet, and i love helping them, but the crazy people are going to turn me into a patient rather then an employee. Quite Frankly, I'm just an average girl. I drink maybe 2, 3 or 4 times times a year, and I don't do any kind of drugs. I'm Catholic, though I do have some issues with some of the Catholic beliefs. And I'm very close to my family. (parents and sister) Hmmm...bad habits....i smoke, I'm a bit stubborn, I play too much with the knob on the radio in the car, I stomp my feet when I'm mad, I am a prime example of the label "ball Mom," i drink entirely too much coffee, (but I don't drink soda, so the coffee isn't too bad, is it)? I'm sarcastic, and I bite my lip and wiggle my toes when I'm nervous. Also i embaress very easily, but once i warm up to someone, the term "stick a sock in it" could very easily be a lierally twards me. LOL There's probably more..no, there IS more, but I'm not out to shoot myself in the foot here) Well, thats pretty much the vanilla side of Jennie in a nutshell.Oh...but there is more...... so now..moving right along to the "rest of" Jennie.. The submissive Jennie.. Im not going to sit here and say im one of those typical robot "slaves" that you meet online who pour out the, "your happiness is my only desire...i live solely for your pleasure...yes...i will hack off my left arm and bleed into a gold goblet until death takes me, because you told me to and i would never disobey my master, i know my death is in my best interest..because you said it was" ((gag..oh pullleeeze, give me a break)) umm i live in the real world!! I have a submissive personality. I don't like being in control, and more over I think it is a mans place to be in control of a relationship, but it is not as simple as that..i do take it to an "abnormal" extreme because Im happier that way. I think it is my place as a woman to be there for my spouse/boyfriend/ etc etc. (what ever you chose to call it) to make him happy and see to his needs. That's why Im not looking in the vanilla world for a "controlling" man. He has to be knowledgeable in the D/s lifestyle in order to understand me. To love , Honor, and obey....is that not what the original vows for marriage were?? Obey was dropped from those vows, what will be dropped next?..Love??..hmm that will make for a good realtionship...(sigh) A good part of me is simply domestic. Getting drinks, taking care of dinner, giving a massage, taking off shoes, running a bath, taking care of his guests (non-sexually) obeying instructions, etc., etc. But having the underlining knowledge that even though I might be "asked" nicely to do something, it wasn't truly a question, and there is no choice to decline it. Yes, I want to keep the man Im with happy, but it is a two sided coin, I need to be happy as well, or it wont work. There are so many sides to me, that I have to have consistency. Someone who is lazy and cant be consistent with the rules he has laid down makes me frazzled. Heck, if he cant follow through with what he said he was going to do, then why in the world should I, it wouldn't make a difference. I am most content when i have some form of guidlines to follow. Im not saying that i dont test limits, I do!! ..alot as a matter of fact. and i have a sarcastic mouth on me that is used more often then should be acceptable, but i also take pride in who im with, and work hard to make him shine as brightly in the eyes of others as he does in my eyes. I feel that i am a loyal person who will stand with the one i belong to even during times that i might not agree with what it is im standing up for...i stand solely because it is my place to support him. Someone once asked a man I was dating (we dated 4 months..before the Man i mentioned above.) if we role-played. His answer to that questioned opened my eyes and made me realize something I had already known, I guess, but never really understood it, or put it into words..or really even thought about. He said no, that we didn't have to role-play, that we didn't need to because people role-played our real life relationship..LOL he went on to say that age play wasn't needed because part of me was nothing more then a sarcastic teenager at times that was far too stubborn for her own good, and then at other times just a little girl who wanted to be loved and coddled. Though part of me was the mature woman he could sit and talk to as a best friend....french maid play was out as well, because i was already a free maid,, waitress and cook, ....and slut play (pardon the term) wasn't needed because i made a fine slut in the bedroom anyway. he went on to say that if we had to roleplay scenes as well, he wouldn't have a chance to come up for air because he dealt with every side of me every day already. (those werent exact words....but close enough) To this day, I have never role-played anything. Im not against it, but I might get embaressed trying. I try my best to be obedient, both non-sexually and sexually, though I do tend to test limits and boundaries. And even though I have been in the lifestyle as many years as I have,(thats a whole other conversation though) I would never consider myself a perfect slave. Im far too outspoken (in a weird way,) for that, and I feel like my opinions count for something even if in the end something doesn't go the way I would have preferred. They still mattered, and ill still value them. I would hope the man Im with would at least hear my thoughts and ideas, not so much on small matters, but on important issues, I want to be heard. There wasn't very much consistency the last two years of my last relationship, and that has kind of put me out of sorts, so as unfair as it may seem, the person i end up with will end up trying to put the pieces of that back together and reform what it is that they want. what i mean by that is i am not the perfect prepackaged submissive that i once was pretty close to, i DONT mean that Im a heartbroken girl with emotional issues. (i wanted to clarify that) Dominance, submission and discipline are very different from BDSM in my opinion. BDSM is the kinky side of sex...and quite separate from the D/s portion. BDSM is fun, Im not an extreme masochist...a little pain is exciting, but a lot is scary..LOL But I do like some BDSM in the mix of sex. And I do like being flogged (thud, not sting) especially Florentine style. I suppose that's why physical discipline seemed to get my attention easily, Im not what one would consider a major masochistic player. I added the last few paragraphs to my bio because D/s is as important in my life as anything else in my life. It is a big part of who i am, and quite frankly, will help the reader of my journal to understand my entries a little better by knowing this. Who knows if i will keep up this journal, i will try though. who knows, maybe it will force me to learn more about myself. | ||||
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